Damned good excuse...

...for not posting in such a loooong time. Three words...

Completly unexpected. Totem went in for a stress test on Wednesday the 8th and ended up spending the night because of high blood pressure and contractions less than 3 minutes apart. She called me right at 5PM and I ran straight over from work. I didn't go back. ;) She labored (pain free) for most of the dahy on Thursday until later in the afternoon when her blood pressure climbed to 179/110. The doctors were nervous about toxemia and decided that a C-Section was the best plan of action for the health of the baby and of Totem.

This was a huge let down for Totem... She really wanted to deliver vaginally. Fortunately, someone was feeling her pain and about 20 minutes before the scheduled section, her water broke. So regardless of the delivery method, Alex was coming on June 9th.

June 9th, 2005. 8:26PM. 5 pounds and 8.6 ounces. Alex was born. Check out the last shot in the first row...

Videos were taken. Pictures were taken. Hugs and kisses were given and the evening was amazing. I know know what all those father's are feeling when they smile and are speechless. =) I am so happy that words cannot describe it. It's just a miracle.

We stayed at the hospital until Monday the 13th (yes, I slept at the hospital with Totem every night) we Totem and Alex were discharged. We've made it through two nights now. Everything is going smoothly. I'm getting used to the sleepless nights but I'm not angry. It worth it for a glace into my Son's eyes. That sounds so wierd...

And thanks for Acwmaiden who brought up the fact that I get to really celebrate Father's Day this weekend... ;)

If anyone wanted to see some more pictures, head over to my Sister-in-Law's photo gallery at:
http://simpledreams.net/photos/ajalbum/

Havok on my sinuses...

January 13, 2005. Buffalo, NY the snow capital of the US.

Today's High: 60 DEGREES
Tomorrow's High: 30 DEGREES

Man... I just had to get sick this week... :\

High Risk Pregnancy...

Less than a week after we get the good news, we get some bad news... Potentially really bad news...

Totem is RH-. I am RH+. The long and the short of it, from what I can tell, is that if left untreated, Totem's body will treat our baby as a virus/infection/foreign body and try to destroy it. Once the baby's blood gets into her blood, Totem forms antibodies. Those antibodies enter the fetus and begin to kill red blood cells. Obviously, if left alone, this will kill the baby. The good news, it is treatable. The bad news, we found out that we were already six weeks along when we found out she was pregnant. There is a chance that the antibodies have already formed...

Not only that, blood tests show that Totem is not producing enough progesterone (sp). Again, I'm not a pro at this, but the doctor said that if her levels do not increase, she is at a much higher risk for miscarriage. Under 8 is extrememly high risk, above 20 is normal. Totem's levels are at 15. They're treating her and over time, this should improve. Only time will tell, though.

Needless to say, Totem is taking this extremely hard. She's always been afraid that she won't be able to get pregnant. Then, when she does, she's given this news. I, myself, am trying to do what my dad has always told me to do. "Go with the flow." It's really too early to tell one way or the other how things are going to go. But I'm really, really worried about Totem... She means the world to me. I hope everything is going to be OK. I'm praying everything is going to be OK...

Road to recovery...

Slowly... I'm getting back into my normal schedule of things... This cold/sore throat/headache/fever/something is frickin wrong with me problm is slowly going away now that my docter got me on antibiotics...

Ungh...

Odd...

I have no idea why, but I'm on some sort of a buzz this morning... Happy. Upbeat. Excited...

Wedding jitters finally kicking in???? :\

Who cares! I like it!!!

Roughs days for Totem...

The last days have been pretty rough on my but even worse for Totem...

Tuesday morning at 3AM we woke up to her being in tremendous stomach and back pain. She had been prescribed a new medicine and was complaining about back pain over the last weekend so we figured she was having a reaction to it. We woke up her doctor and after a quick couple of minutes trying to figure out what was going on, he told her to goto the Emergency room.

4AM we were there. One IV, a bunch of tests, and two hours later, we had an answer. Infection. The bladder type. Turns out the infection was bad enough that the pain was being spread to her back, stomach, and abdomen. (We learned from our doctor later that an infection of this type mimicks many things from appendicitus (sp) or pancreas attacks or anything - thats why he sent us to the emergency room.)

So she was given some pretty powerful antibiotics and muscle relaxers (to control the spasms) and we were heading home. I made it into work later that afternoon after she had rested a while. When I was at my second job, she called me. Back to square one. Horrible pain in her stomach and back. Worse then on Monday when we went to the emergency room. I couldn't get out early so all I could do was wait to get home at midnight and see how she was doing. Talk about feeling helpless again... Nothing like listening to your fiancee wailing in pain on the phone and there was nothing you could do... And she wouldn't wake her parents up b/c they were babysitting our nephew and niece.

By the time I had gotten home, she had thrown up everything she had eaten (medicine included) and she was AOK. She was smiling, happy, no pain at all, everything was good... Bad assumption again. The medicine was doing its work and getting the stuff out of her system. So we agreed that she should take the next dose.

4AM Wednesday morning. She's feeling sick again. Pain everywhere and she wants to puke. By 7AM he mother had woken up and was now downstairs trying to console her. Once again, she lost the entire contents of her stomach and all was well. We (her mom included) agreed to call her doctor for an emergency appointment.

12:30PM Wednesday. The doctor confirms everything the ER had said. Prescribes some anti-nausea medicine and something to promote healing in her gastro-whatever track.

3:30PM. Guess what? Its back. Totem cannot stop screaming from the pain. She just can't handle it anymore. A walk in some fresh air does not help. She starts to say that she wants to vomit to get rid of the pain but now she can't because of the new medicine keeping her from doing so... Great. Nothing like handcuffs for stomach pain... Eventually, much later, she does and things look up. She's feeling better so she takes a nap.

Now I start to get nervous. She hasn't really eaten anything in the past two days. Everything she has tried to eat has come back up. We've been through an episode of dehydration with her before and I don't want to go through that again...

Around 8PM she wakes up in a little back pain. Not as much as before, but the same amount and type of pain she was in on Sunday when we first thought her first prescription was causing...

Luckily for me, both her parents were home and did a much better job at making her feel better than I could. Maybe it was because they were telling her to do stuff, instead of offering to do things for her. Maybe because it was Mom and Dad. I don't know...

Stomach pain started to come back. Her father's trick, that seemed to work pretty damned good, ice packs all over her back and stomach. She was in pain still, but not wailing or tossing and turning like she was before.

So I started feeling bad that I couldn't make her feel better but was glad that someone at least could... She's everything to me and watching her scream in pain, knowing that there wasn't much at all that I could do, really rips a guy's heart out...

Her parents go to bed and I try and get Totem to do the same. She tells me thank you for everything I've done. I told her that her dad was the one doing the magic, not me. Then she said to me, but you were there and thats what matters. Now for the sappy part... I smile and tell her, "In sickness and in health..." :) She smiles and seems to be in better spirits.

I get her downstairs and slowly she goes to sleep.

Now wait, I haven't said so far is that when her parents came home, her mom had a long talk with her doctor about what was going on and what to do. Unfortunately, b/c Totem is over 21, the doctor couldn't tell her much b/c of some new privacy law that was just enacted. So she did what every Mom would do. She became Dr. Mom and told our doctor that she was taking Totem off of all the meds. He agreed and suggested she taken some extra strength tylenol.

While her Dad was doing his magic, he thought she should at least try to take the antibiotic again, to get rid of whatever was left in her system. Nothing else, just the antibiotic. So she did...

Midnight Wednesday. Nope, no good. She couldn't keep that down either. But, like usual, she felt a little better afterwards. Just enough to get back to out room and goto sleep...

Now, I've got to head out to work... I've left her with a bunch of ice packs and I hope she'll be doing fine throughout the day. I won't be home until 8 or 9 tonite so all I can so is just hope she'll be OK...

Here it comes...

I'm cold when I normally would be sweating... My throat is killing me and I have a "nasal-ly" sounding voice...

Yippee! The cold is here... :\

I guess now is as good as a time as ever to get it when no homework is due and nothing too major is going on with school and work...

Migraines...

Lately, I've been getting splitting headaches... Daily. They start behind my right eye and spread to the back of my head and neck. Usually I get dizzy and feel sick too. Sounds great huh?

Well anyway, I think they're Migraines since they keep coming and Aspirin and Tylenol aren't working... Anyone have some good tips for fighting Migraines?

Its coming...

My seasonal cold. I'm all stuffed up. I'm feeling so much pressure in my sinuses. Its 61 degrees in my office and I'm sweating like crazy... I feel so... Blah...

At least I get it out of the way before any snow really hits the area...

Doing well...

Totem and I just got home from the hospital. We ended up staying over night because she was in too much pain. And because the Demerol (sp?) so strong the nurses wouldn't let us go. Everything went OK with the surgery though. The doctor did feel that she had numerous stone in her gallbladder before he removed it but he was not able to get us a count. They were able to go through with the laproscopic (sp?) surgery instead of having to open her up so that should help her recover much quicker. Right now she is sleeping and soon I'll be giving her some more strong pain medication. She seems like she is going to make a full recovery after she gets a day or two pf sleep in.

The only thing I didn't like about the whole thing was that I am starting to notice a pattern in the type of people we encounter at hospitals. And I mean the employees. The head nurses always seems to be angry or mad at your for inconveniencing them. The one Totem had last night would not stop telling me that the ambulatory surgery center closes at 8 PM and there was nothing she could do to help me. At least she got a bed for Totem. This morning the head nurses seemed the same. They appeared to be frustrated that we were asking for help. Now the normal RN's were exactly the opposite. Last night the nurse that helped Totem to the bathroom and helped to move her across the hospital was one of the nicest women I have ever met. The male RN we had during the early hours of the night (after midnight) was another very kind man. He joked with us and helped with anything was needed, no questions asked. Cleaning granite countertops - countertopsguide.net

I just wonder why people who don't want to really help other people manage to find jobs at hospitals.

Yes, they probably had a long day but that shouldn't matter. Your job is to help others. Not to take it out on them because someone else ruined your day...

Surgery...

Tommorrow Totem goes in for her gallbladder surgery. She's a little nervous since she has not had surgery since she was a little kid. If everything goes OK she'll be out tommorrow night since the surgery is outpatient. If not, we'll be spending the night at the hospital. I hope I'll be able to make her feel comfortable tomorrow and during the weekend while she is recovering...

The upside is that I'm going to her school for the first time tomorrow. I got "excused" from my two classes and work b/c of the surgery, but since Totem's classes are all early morning, she'll still have time to goto them. She's looking forward to "showing me off." Whatever that means... :)

Ungh...

Have you ever sat down in a room only to have a person who smells like they have just finished smoking a whole pack of cigarettes sit down next to you?

I feel like puking and this headache does not help... :(

Renewed Faith...

Yesterday, for the first time in two weeks, almost right after I wrote about my knee problem and saying I was doing well staying away from fast food, I went out for lunch. :\ I'm kinda disgusted with myself cause it was an all you can eat place and I ate until I was really full. Those three pounds are already back... :( (Maybe water weight, maybe not, don't know, don't care, they're still back)

Now I don't even want to think about eating out. To screw over a weeks worth of work on one meal kinda got to me. I don't think I'll be eating out any time soon and for the first time in a long time, I think that's really really good...

End of week 3...

Things are definately changing as I finish up the third week of my "you only got a year to lose 50 pounds" routine...

I'm down another 3 pounds. I can run an entire lap on the indoor track at my University without getting winded. Much better than when I used to get winded within the first hundred feet or so... My headaches are starting to go away so thats a plus (my doctor said that exercising should help, I guess he was right)... I've also been eating less and eating out less. It's been two weeks since I have eaten out (PB&J is really not that bad ;) ) and while it's probably not helping the weight situation too much, it is helping the money situation and I've noticed I'm eating less and getting full faster... 8)

There are some negs though... I can only run two laps now before I start to get excruciating pain in my knees... If I push it and do my usual 10 laps (5 run, 5 walk) I can bearly make it out of the building when I am done... And I know something is happening because when the pain kicks in, so does the swelling. My knees swell up really really bad when I run. :( It's not even muscle pain anymore... I'm hoping it goes away or I'm going to have to shift to a different exercise pattern...

No surgery...

The doc didn't find a hernia. He said it was probably a groin pull... No surgery for me!!! :)

Over did it...

I'm beat. I think I pushed myself a little too hard with the walking this week. Yesterday and today I had to cut my routine in half because I was in so much pain. Totem says its because I didn't stretch. I think she's right. Well, I have this weekend to relax (we're going camping) and then I'll try stretching next week.

I love doctors...

Yesterday was not a good day in terms of doctors giving Totem and I news...

Totem has gallstones and will probably have to have her gallbladder removed. I have a partial hernia in the left side of my abdomen. So thats two for me (I had one on my right side that was a complete hernia and was surgically repaired about 4 years ago). Both of our doctors believe surgery is needed (for both cases), but we are both off to specialists to figure out exactly what will be done, surgery or not... Yippee!!! :\

Go figure... Totem went in to find out about some heartburn she was having and I went in to talk to my doctor about headaches and we both left with our doctors telling us we needed surgery... Lucky us.

Week one...

It's been a couple of days since I have started running/jogging/walking and I've already seen some good (and bad) results. I've lost 10 pounds already. Good that I've lost it, bad that I lost so much so quickly. It's also proving to me that whenever I start to exercise, it must be the water weight I am losing because this has happened EVERY time I exercise. 10 pounds right away. Sad thing is if I stop tommorrow, I give it 2 days before it all comes back. I'm also hurting a lot. My legs are killing me. Good or bad, I don't know. No pain no gain, right? :\

Secret is out...

Now that everyone knows about the engagement, I'm shifting gears away from planning to propose to my health. I've got about a year before the wedding and I need to lose some weight...

I know I can lose at least 30 pounds in a couple of months. I did it before just from cutting back on the pop and walking. (I just gained it all back and some more when my Grandma died. I just didn't care at that point...) What I'd really like to do is push the envelope for 20 more. My doctor wants me to lose 70 pounds but at that weight, I'd look pretty scrawny so I think 50 pounds is a good goal...

The first thing I have to do though is get a scale that will measure body fat. I need to see how much muscle I really have... When I was exercising and I lost those 30 lbs, but I started to plateau. I lost the 30 really quick and wouldn't lose anymore... Maybe I was gaing muscle, maybe I just needed to work out more. I don't know but I figure if I have a low body fat percent, I'll focus more on the endurance part of exercising so I can get some tone in. I don't think I'm the body builder type, so bulging muscles are out of the question. I just wanna be in shape. If that's not the case though (of the low body fat), I'm just gonna keep pushing myself until it happens...

Figures...

I was having a good day. Had lunch with Dad, too. Then all the crap below happened and I feel sick... Butterfiles, nausea, cold sweats... I wanna go home...

Tired...

I'm tired... 12 hour days, every weekday is very draining and its starting to catch up with me...

Very accurate...

Your Brain Usage Profile

Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 29%
Right : 70%

"Geek" (I used my real name), you are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."

You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.

You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.

The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.

In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot under- stand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.

To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frustrated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"

It's kinda scary how accurate that is... :\
Wanna try? Here's the link:
http://www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/profiler

Thanks to Acwmaiden for the link/test... :)

Mood change...

I was having a good day, and then like a light switch... Downhill I go...

I feel so alone. I've got everyone by me. Totem. My family. Her family. But I feel so lonely and depressed...

I want these damned finals to be over with so I can figure out if this is from all the friggin stress of school or if it is something else...

Semi-relaxed...

My only classes were cancelled today so I got to sleep in this morning. That really helped. It was nice to get more than 8 hours of sleep for once. Work is going slow. With any luck, I'll be sent home again (there is absolutely no work to do).

Bad thing is the cough I've had for a week now has become worse. And to top if off, I've been sneezing every couple of hours and I sound like I have a stuffed nose... I thought I just got over this damned cold... :\

What gives...

What gives... I went to bed at 2 AM... I'm now up at 9:30 and can't go back to sleep... Grrr...

HA!!!

I got a hit from "robotussin with codine"!!! YES!!! =)

http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=robotussin+with+codine

Being sick sucks...

I had to leave work early yesterday. I was sweating, but freezing. Everytime I stood up, I felt like I could fall over because I was so dizzy... I think smilemore even saw a bit of this when her and I went for a ride yesterday...

So I got home, still feeling like crap, and I ended up scaring totem. She was not expecting me for a couple of hours and I wanted to surprise her, instead of letting her know I was coming home sick... Opps... Anyway, she made me chicken noodle soup and muffins and other yummy good stuff. She's kewl. ;) AND she let me play on my computer. That's hen I know she was really concerned. (Normally, me being on the computer while she is home is not a good thing.)

But now I have to go back to work. I gotta make up the three hours I lost yesterday and I'm still working on making up the 20+ hours I lost last week... Yippee...

Blah...

Someone remind me never to eat milk products and chinese together again.

I thought Sobe would be ok. Then I saw it had skim milk in it... Then I got to work. Now I taste my sweet and sour chicken in my throat and my stomach is talking to me... :(

Never happened before...

I thought is was bad yesterday when my boss told me to go home. I guess I was wrong...

Last night, this flu/cold thing I thought I had got really bad. Both ears were ringing. I couldn't hear out of one of them. I was coughing up... I don't know what the hell I was coughing up and my throat was just friggin killing me.

So anyway, I call in this morning to tell them I can't come in and make an emergency appointment with my doctor. Severe sinus infection. Oh great... I have never had sinus problems in my life and as far as I could tell I'm not allergic to anything. I asked him what caused it and he said Buffalo weather. Well maybe two weeks of high 40's weather on the odd days and low 10's weather on the even days would explain it... It makes sense. So, I'm on mega-powerful-super-duper-kill-anything-and-everything antibiotics and because I have a cough, he threw in stuff that is like robotussin, except it has codine in it. YAY CODINE!!!

So the plus is that I have all of today and tomorrow off to recover. The minus is that I need to figure out how to make up 24 hours of work over the next few weeks because I don't get sick days... :(

Sick...

I just thought of something... I've been sick all week. Flu, coldish type symptoms but no one else is getting sick around me so I'm not sure if that's what it was... Hopefully the nice weather this weekend will make things a little nicer.

Had a blast...

This is kinda late so I'm gonna be long and broad... I've got nothing better to do at work anyway... ;)

Friday was the annual Engineer's ball at UB. Jen and I and lots of friends have been planning on attending for awhile now. The morning started off well. Jen skipped her classes so she could come to school with me and talk to a bunch of our friends and to have lunch with them. As usual, nothing went as planned. =) In our first class, Jen again realized how easy the course was and why I'm stressing out over not getting an A in it... Plus she had a fun time watching Sue finish sewing her dress (which, by the way, was BEAUTIFUL!). After that, we met up with Gabe to goto lunch. Pizza Hut unlimited trips to lunch buffet = goodness. The only thing that was a problem was that Gabe was not too excited about wearing a dress to the ball. It's just not something she does... So Jen and I are trying to get her excited with no avail... :( N7 christmas wishlist V.1.0.1.

Then Gabe decides she'll skip her next class to hang out with us for a bit. YAY GABE!!! Here's where the fun started. She found out that the afternoon plans for Jen and I were haircuts. We went to the local mall to find a barber shop only to find a Fasion Salon in JCPenney's. So, I waited while Jen got her hair done. Gabe was not going to get hers done, but then Jen pulled a fast one on her. Earlier in the day, Gabe said if you are going to do something, you might as well do it right (referring to jewelry I think). Well, Jen said that to Gabe and she was like, oh no, I'm not gonna let that one slide. She got her hair done too. ;) You should have seen her face when she was done. She was smiling ear to ear and looked great. Downside was we had to litterally run back to campus to get her to an exam. But I think it was worth it because she said she has never gotten the looks she gotten from the TA's when she went to the exam. online filme, die.

We then all parted and got ready for the dance. Jen and I got all dressed up, she looked HOT, I'm just me and I've worn formal clothes all throughout high school (dress code) so I didn't feel any different or like anything special. Anyway, after that, it was time to meet up with the group.

We headed over to Sue's house around 6:00. Half the group was there. Everyone was talking and Sue was going nuts. Short description: lotsa ppl in small space = no good for Sue. ;) Understandable though. Jen and I stayed there until the dance with Sue and her date while the rest of the group met up with the other half. I felt bad for Sue, because her date was being a jerk at times, and because she asked him a long time ago if he wanted to go, before she got to know him... But on the otherhand, whether she knew it or not, Sue and her dress would knock down any guy (and in fact blew over a TON of them) so I knew she would at least be able to get a dance with someone. I was able to get a picture of her and Jen before we left. I'm thinking about blowing it up and framing it on the wall.... ::drool::

...

*cough* Anyway, we finally caught up with everyone at the Mariott (where the dance was). Fortunately for us, Gabe threw a dinner party the weekend before so we all knew each other beforehand. All 12 of us. Everyone looked good and we were all happy. To my surprise, Gabe looked really excited. She looked really good in her dress, contrary to what she has been telling me for a month or two now. And with her heels, she was as tall as me (I'm 6 foot, 2 inches). She looked stunning! And as a joke to help her feel a little more comfortable, we kept reminding her that there was another woman in heels that was taller than her. ;) This girl must have been taller than me without the heels...

Dinner was OK. Small, but typical for this type of dance. But the dancing is what made the night. Jen and I have never felt so comfortable in a group dancing before. We ended up dancing the entire night!!! It was great. Slow songs, fast songs, electric slide, YMCA, chicken dance, it was great! Everyone was switching partners too. We had a blast.

Highlights: When they played slow songs, they played 2-3 of them. Jen and I got a lot of good time together. I noticed Sue was just sitting down during these slows songs. Jen also caught on. I got to dance with Sue. It was kewl and stuff. I guess I did a good job dancing because she said she liked it in her livejournal... Again, there is a twist though. Throughout the night, Sue wasnted to dance with this one guy that had been eyeing her up. They have a past, but that is not for me to discuss. Needless to say, when we were dancing, Sue and I got close and this guys eye's got huge! I still have a dagger in my back. ;) The point is that the dance Sue and I had, I hope, I think, gave her the courage to ask him to dance and they did. =) I've got pictures to prove it. I also got to dance with Gabe. THAT WAS AWESOME! Not just because she danced with me, but because she grabbed me and pulled me onto the dace floor... ::blushes:: All in all the dancing rocked!

Lowlights: As predicted, Sue's date was a jerk most of the night. Also, as predicted, Sue had no problem getting people to dance with her (read above). I didn't feel to special looking, but oddly, I didn't care. I was having a good time...

Memorables:
Sue and Jen dancing. ;) They rocked.
Me and Sue and Jen dancing. We rocked!
My dance with Sue.
My dance with Gabe.
The sugar bridges that Bob built.
The pull-Bob-out-of-his-chair-literally to make him dance episode.
All around bonding.

BUT THE NIGHT WAS NOT OVER!!! We then went bowling in our suits and dresses! The looks we got were priceless but we had a blast! Most of us guys looked like James bond because of the black lights and the women... Well, lets say I've never seen prettier bowlers before. ;)

THEN at about 2:00 we decided that bowling was over, but we still wanted to have fun. We went to Dennys. Besides all the stuff that we talked about, we generally relaxed. It was the first time much of us had really sat down all night. The awesome thing is that I ran into my old boss there. (She had two jobs, being my boss, and the graveyard shift waitress at Dennys.) It was really kewl that she remembered me two years later.

Now all I need to do is get the pictures developed and put a photo album together to share. I can't wait for another one of these to happen!!!

Personality Quiz...

From Sue:

Click here...

That is TOO scary because for some reason I think that is true... :\

Flu sucks...

You know... I hate it when things are going well and then you get sick...

Stomach ache to no extent yesterday. Pain, nausea. Bah... Not good. I tried everything to make it go away. No luck. Not to mention puking every where too... =( What bothers me is that I went to bed at 5:30 in the afternoon and I just woke up at 8:00 in the morning today... I havent slept that long in years...

Now I gotta piss everyone off and cancel all the plans for this weekend. I've had to tell me parents that can't come over for dinner (really depressing for me because I was really looking forward to it). I've had to back out of a Dungeons and Dragons party I was helping plan for a couple of months now (really REALLY angry about that). And I've made Jen's grandparents change their plans. We were planning on visiting them today, but now they are coming over since I really can't do anything...

This better pass by Christmas because I don't want to keep doing this to Jen. She's been so supportive during all of this. She's gotten everything I needed, made me soup, held me, and even helped clean up (unfortunately) the mess that I made... I'm embarrassed to make her do all of this, but on the upside, I really love her.

Jen, you're everything to me. I love you! I'll make this up to you somehow...

What a way to wake up...

Went to the doctors this morning. I'm starting to think that it is physically impossible to be completely healthy anymore. I mean, if the Doctor said I was in tip top shape and could go home, I'd be in shock...

In the past, I went in for stomach problems. Left finding out I have sponge kidneys (calcification on the kidneys)...

Today I go in for back pains (from too many rides at a theme park), leave with a strict warning of exercise and diet. Gotta love waking up to, "You're overweight, you have high blood pressure, and you need to exercise. I'll see you in a month." Like I'm gonna lose that much that soon...

Guess I'm kinda used to it by now. Does not really bother me anyway. Ten dollars is not too bad and I know my health insurance is dishing out big bucks for him to give me samples of pain killers and the usual "come back in a month" speech. Hey, at least I'm keeping the doctor comfortable in his Mercedes. ;)

Oh boy...

So I'm taking a personality test here that I found from here (David's Blog) and I got some pretty nice results:

Disorder Rating Information
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Anyone want to be my friend today? :( And what the hell does "Schizotypal" mean???