Keeping as clear as mud as I usually do...

I honestly believe I'm a pawn in my chessboard of life. It sucks being on the bottom and being use, abused, and sacrificed. It almost seems common place now so much so that I expect it.

There is one huge bonus when you are a pawn though... When used properly, they can be put into great situations where a move they make can be critical to their life (IE: upgrade to rook, knight, bishop or queen) or detrimental to their opponents (IE: checkmate via a pawn).

I'm in a position to take check. I'm thinking this is pretty awesome. I have the chance to win the game but on top of that be one of the "little pieces" to actually do it. What's better is that I am also in the position to be sacrificed. This of a pawn making check on a King. Why can't the king just take the pawn? Because the pawn (me) is being backed by the queen... And a rook... And two knights... And a bishop... AND three pawn buddies. (Is this even possible in a real game of chess?)

So on my chessboard of life, I'm posed to make a major move.

A.) Do I risk losing the protection and support I have from all my fellow chess pieces to move into the spot that will let me upgrade my role in the chess game??? Obvious loss is all the outward protection I have earned while moving along the board.

OR

B.) Do I stay back knowing that the support and guidance is still there from all the senior chess pieces knowing that I can't advance my role immediately. Obvious loss is the ability to give back and support all the other pieces (including those dear to my heart).

Option B is where I think I am going to head. Option A was extremely tempting but after I announced my intention to make a move, all of the powerful chess pieces made it clear that they would support any move I make, but wanted to let me know that I still have a place of protection in my current spot.

Why the hell am I writing about this? If the queen, rook, knights, and bishop had not spoken to me, I would have made the move without a second thought. But since I told the rook of my intentions, who told a bishop, who told the knights, who notified the queen, and then they all progressively sat down with me to talk about my reasons for the move, one by one, made me realize that they do hold my position of a pawn as powerful and valuable to them, something I had not felt in the past. (Beat that run on sentence. =))