I said I could do it, and I did. But I am really drained...

Last night was rough. The homewrok lasted much longer than I had thought and I got home later than I had planned. Totem is doing better but she's starting to feel bad because she is home alone all the time and when I get home, I have to spend time on homework and not with her. I'm not liking that. I'd love to spend my evenings with her. I want to. But when homework takes 4+ hours to do it kinda ruins all other things... Shoulda done it earlier? Tried that. Was at Totem's surgery. That's more important than hw I think.

Anyway, in the morning I felt pretty rested. I was able to finish up the rest of the homework and eat breakfast all in time for me to still make it to class, on time. So I'm cruising along, feeling pretty good about myself. I was doing the speed limit even though there was no traffic. Everything was good. Then I see a semi in the right lane of a two lane highway. I was pacing a car that had an older couple in it. We were basically approaching the semi to the point where I would have to back off or speed up to get around the car. I sped up. No sooner than me speeding up and well, cutting off the other car I saw another slow car in the left lane. Now to keep going, I was going to have to cut off the semi. I kept up and I did.

Well, the older couple didn't like that. Or at least I thought it was an older couple. They actually were Sheriffs in an undercover car and they wanted to make sure I knew what I was doing. I am afraid of police lights now.

Long story short, I think he saw that I was nervous and that I got a ticket only a little over a month ago so he let me off with a warning. The whole process just knocked me off the pedistal I was on. I wasn't depressed or anything, I was actually happy I didn't get another ticket. I just felt empty, tired, and lost after that. Sorta like you've just run out of energy but in a mental way and not a physical one. I'm just drained now...

I think someone above is watching over me. I hope they keep watching... I could use the help.